I have been in a funk lately. Honestly, I just have some things going on in my personal life that just really bite--I will be honest with you. I have been angry and upset at those involved, but more than that, I think I have been a little angry with God and whining like a spoiled brat.
This morning as I was working out, I had some time to think and I came to the conclusion (and I have known this all along, but for some odd reason it just wasn't clicking) that God is never our problem. Are you ready for the real answer? We are the problem! Yes. . .you read that right. We are the problem. Whether it is our pride or our selfishness, we are always the problem.
I have learned that blaming God for the things in my life is never the answer. Usually when this occurs, it is because He is trying to show me a side of myself that either He has a problem with and it needs to be changed, or I am getting ready to go through something and He is just trying to prepare me.
I wish I could say that I always handled these situations as a rock-solid Christian, but I don't. Sometimes I lose sight of what is in front of me, or I take my eyes off the prize. When that happens, I lose faith--not in God, but in myself. I begin to think that there is no way out of this horrible situation. Even though I may fall, the beauty is not in falling, but in getting back up and getting back on track.
I guess I am writing all of this to say this: If you find yourself right now in a funk, or you are feeling down, first--don't beat yourself up or feel guilty for having a downcast soul. Even King David went through periods like this. If you do, seek God or talk to Him about how you are feeling. Secondly, don't watch shows on t.v. that might cause you to feel worse. Find something uplifting or spiritual to watch--it always helps. And then lastly, find something to do that will make a difference like volunteer at a soup kitchen or donating your time to do something worthwhile. I have found during my worst phases of feeling down, that when I help someone else, I don't feel as bad.
I will be glad when this season in my life passes, but until it does, I am going to do my very best to keep my eyes on Jesus--the Author and Finisher of my faith.